Understanding oneself is one of the key aspects that define whether one would be successfully in life or not. In this regard, knowing one’s strengths and weaknesses, as well as understanding what one is able to do effectively plays a critical role in placing one in a position whether he or she can achieve high performance levels. In reference to Drucker (1999) understanding the self is one of the key aspects that a person needs to consider in order to determine where he or she fits and as such, can make the greatest contribution. Importantly, as a person, understanding the self is not a one-time event. On the contrary, this is a continuous process that takes place in my entire life. This is affirmed by Alvesson (2017) who in reference to leadership reiterates that leadership is a process and a relationship that develops over time rather than in a single event. With this in mind, I will focus in this reflexive journal on my leadership capabilities based on what I have learned in my course this semester. In particular, I will focus on my leadership strengths, my values as far as leadership is concerned, what I want to contribute in terms of leadership, areas that require improvement, and my learning plan, both short term and long term.
了解自己是决定一个人能否在生活中成功的关键因素之一。在这方面，了解自己的长处和短处，以及了解自己能够有效地做些什么，对于让自己处于一个能够实现高绩效水平的位置起着至关重要的作用。关于德鲁克（1999），理解自我是一个人需要考虑的关键方面之一，以决定他或她适合哪里，因此，可以做出更大的贡献。重要的是，作为一个人，了解自我不是一次性的事情。相反，这是一个持续的过程，发生在我的整个生活中。Alvesson（2017）在谈到领导力时重申，领导力是一个过程，是一种关系，随着时间的推移而发展，而不是在单一事件中发展。考虑到这一点，我将在这本反思性杂志中根据我在本学期课程中所学到的知识，重点介绍我的领导能力。特别是，我将重点关注我的领导力优势、我在领导力方面的价值观、我在领导力方面的贡献、需要改进的领域以及我的短期和长期学习计划。
One of the critical aspects that I consider in this essay in relation to leadership regards how I perform, as well as my leadership strengths. To begin with, to establish how I perform, I evaluated whether I am a listener or a reader. An analysis of the feedback I have received from my peers and tutors as well as an evaluation of how I perform especially when engaged in group work, I have noticed that I perform well and I am able to effectively and clearly articulate myself when I write down the issues I intend to address as compared to when I just listen to others and address such issues. Speaking from this perspective, I think I am a reader rather than a listener. In his analysis of how people perform as far as leadership is concerned, Drucker (1999) observes that readers tend to rely on what they wrote down in order to provide leadership while listeners are able to capture details by relying on their listening skills, thus providing effective leadership without necessarily writing anything down. Whereas my writing is not necessarily in form of long speeches written in a particular way, I found it easier to gain an understanding of an issue first by reading about it before presenting it before other people.
在这篇文章中，我认为与领导有关的一个关键方面是我的表现，以及我的领导才能。首先，为了确定我的表现，我评估了我是听众还是读者。对我从同伴和导师那里收到的反馈进行分析，并对我的表现进行评估，尤其是在参与小组工作时，我已经注意到，当我写下我打算解决的问题时，我的表现很好，我能够有效和清晰地表达自己，而不是仅仅听取他人的意见并解决这些问题。从这个角度讲，我认为我是一个读者而不是一个听众。德鲁克（1999）在分析人们在领导力方面的表现时指出，读者倾向于依靠他们写下的东西来提供领导力，而听众则能够通过他们的倾听技能捕捉细节，从而提供有效的领导力，而不必写下任何东西。虽然我的写作不一定是以特定的方式写的长篇演讲，但我发现，在向其他人介绍某个问题之前，先阅读该问题更容易理解该问题。
Apart from being a reader, I also found out that I was comfortable working under another person rather than being at the top as a decision maker. In this regard, I think my strengths lies in being an advisor rather than being a decision-maker. In reference to Drucker (1999), some people perform well when they are subordinate rather than when they are the key leaders making critical decisions on behalf of the group or team they are leading. With this in mind, I particularly found out that it was easier for me to work under the leadership of another person rather than to be the key person in groups. One of the questions that emerge regards why I prefer to follow rather than lead. From a personal point of view, I think I have personality traits that makes me to prefer staying and working in the background rather than being in the limelight. In reference to Forsyth (2009), some people by nature have certain personal qualities such as skills, temperament, and intelligence that predispose them to be followers rather than leaders and vice versa. With this in mind, I think I have introvert personality traits and as such, I do not like to find myself in a place where I am the centre of focus.
除了作为一名读者，我还发现，我在另一个人手下工作比作为一名决策者站在高层更舒服。在这方面，我认为我的优势在于成为一名顾问，而不是一名决策者。参考德鲁克（1999），有些人在下属时表现良好，而不是当他们是代表所领导的团队或团队做出关键决策的关键时。考虑到这一点，我特别发现在另一个人的领导下工作比成为团队中的关键人物更容易。出现的一个问题是为什么我更喜欢跟随而不是领导。从个人的角度来看，我认为我的性格特点使我更喜欢呆在幕后工作，而不是在聚光灯下。参考Forsyth（2009），有些人天生就具有某些个人素质，如技能、气质和智力，这使他们倾向于成为追随者而不是，反之亦然。考虑到这一点，我认为我有内向的性格特征，因此，我不喜欢发现自己处在一个我是焦点的地方。